they keep saying orange is the new black.
he is standing in front me this orange jumpsuit
but i cant see any black, all i see are police sirens
and my mascara stained cheeks.
that sunday night i lost my best friend.
i slept in his room for two weeks until
i could pull myself together.
i wear his favorite hoodie every night
because it smells like him.
and i didn't know when the next time i got to hug him again.
this sunday night 7 months later,
i still dont have my best friend.
i sleep in my room now.
but i keep his room clean, and his door shut.
and no one is allowed in there.
it may seem like i'm acting like he died.
but as i look at this orange jumpsuit in front me
the old him did die.
i see change.
i see a man.
so i keep his door shut.
so when the new him comes home,
he wont have to see orange, or black.
he can see a life.
and love.
and help.
my cheeks are still stained with my tears,
but i am stronger now.
i still miss the loud music at two am.
and i miss the door always being open
if i ever needed to talk.
but for now i think ill keep his door shut.
until i don't have to worry about
anything being orange,
or anything being black.
song: Rivers and Roads // The Head and The Heart
wow. this came from such a real place and i love the symbolism and just everything about this. wow.
ReplyDeletei love that song and i love this post
ReplyDeleteThis is real and eye opening.
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